Yazmin Oukhellou says she has been sleeping with her mum since the devastating car crash that sadly took the life of her boyfriend, Jake McLean.
Yazmin, 28, is recovering from the accident - which took place in Turkey - back home in Essex, but has been struggling with nightmares.
“I have nightmares every single night since the accident," she told The Sun in her first interview since the incident.
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“I have not stopped waking up in the night about it. Mum stays in bed with me every night.”
Yazmin also explained she is waiting to hear from doctors about news over her broken arm, which she had to break herself to escape the crashed Mercedes, which fell 70 foot from a cliff.
“They said I might not ever get full movement of my arm ever again," Yazmin continued.
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“I am just hoping for the best and do you know what? I could have been like Jake and not survived, so I am just very grateful that if that is the worst case scenario I will deal with it as best I can. At least I am still alive.”
Yazmin also spoke about speculation that the couple had been arguing.
“There are stories that we were arguing. It’s like, ‘How can you say that?' There were two people in the car. Unfortunately my partner did not make it, so the only person that people can listen to now is me because I was the only other person there," she said.
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“I just don’t want people to think we were arguing. We may not have had the picture perfect relationship, but those last moments we had with each other will be the moments I will cherish for the rest of my life. They were the best moments we ever had.”
Yazmin told how the car was 'tumbling for what seemed like forever' after it fell from the cliff.
She explained how the car landed upside down, but her arm was stuck behind her back under the car roof.
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The TOWIE star explained how she tried to honk the horn with her foot but couldn't. In order to escape, Yazmin revealed she snapped her arm 'through pure adrenaline and panic' before climbing out of the car and screaming for help.
“I severed an artery and a nerve, that’s why I bled so much. The doctors called me an angel, a miracle, because it’s a notorious spot and people have never survived," she said.
“Now I’m just wondering how the hell did my partner die while I’ve survived? It’s made me look at life totally differently."
Our thoughts are with Yazmin and we're wishing her a speedy recovery.
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Lucy Devine