Grimes has revealed the real reason why she turned to the Christian faith, a move she calls 'monumentally embarrassing'.
The 36-year-old musician, birth name Claire Elise Boucher, was in an on and off again relationship with X owner Elon Musk between 2018 and 2022, and the pair share three children together; X Æ A-Xii, Exa Dark Sideræl, and Techno Mechanicus.
Grimes was raised as a Roman Catholic, a faith she distanced herself from in adulthood.
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She reflected on being brought up within the faith to the Independent in 2012, saying: "It totally influences everything I do. I think I have serious latent Catholic guilt issues."
The singer explained the way she lived in fear of God as a child, and thought of the world as a 'huge, crazy, extreme, psychedelic, constant battle going on between heaven and hell'.
However, using Elon's platform, Grimes recently penned a statement about her newfound faith.
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She wrote: "It is so monumentally embarrassing that I am finally getting into Christianity because it's the only way I can quit vaping.
"I am more of a general deist/ feel like god is physics/ math / sees itself thru our eyes kinda vibe in terms of what I 'actually think' (the universe is also probably dead and empty except yeh idk prob not ngl)."
The Canadian artist continued: "But there really is something in here that at least speaks to me and what is strange is I never truly needed it until I had to stop myself from doing something destructive.
"I don't usually have a drive that overrides my central nervous system that wants to do smthn as destructive as vaping (so so soooo lame)."
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She added: "This has rly been sending me into a philosophical tailspin tho cuz I have never ever ever had my mind even remotely accessible to religion like I distinctly was extremely doubtful abt it in like grade 1 before I could even be introduced to the concept of doubting it.
"But I am realizing art in and of itself is possibly what god is. The story you tell yourself is very powerful."
Following Grimes' spit from Musk, the artist has opened up about the toll it has taken on her.
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She wrote on X that she had been ‘fighting and detaching from the love [of] my life as he becomes unrecognizable to me, with a fraction of his resources (or iq/strategy experience).'
Regarding her battle for custody of her children, Grimes added: "I didn't see one of my babies for 5 months. And this is only what can be said publicly, since most of my experience these last years should remain behind closed doors."
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