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Warning: Contains references to stillbirth
A mum and influencer has thanked all of those who rallied around her as she opened up about her despair over giving birth to a stillborn baby.
Sophie Guidolin shares four children from her previous marriage, but was expecting a new baby with her husband, Andrew Firgaira, after the pair tied the knot last year.
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She'd first hinted at her pregnancy just a month after marrying Firgaira with an image of what looked to be positive pregnancy tests.
In the months that followed, the mum remained candid about her experience as she shared posts of herself 'exhausted' and 'sick' in hospital, and having to carry around a bag she could be sick in.
She made clear she had 'loved pregnancy', but this week shared the devastating news that her baby daughter had passed away.
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Guidolin began her post with a 'trigger warning' as she acknowledged she has a lot of mums and mums-to-be among her followers, but she continued with her candour as she said she 'cannot begin to articulate' her pain, grief and despair over the loss.
"On Wednesday, Jan 25th, a day I will never forget, my life was changed forever. I gave birth to a beautiful little girl, Pixie, via c-section, stillborn," she wrote.
The influencer admitted she doesn't 'have the words' to comprehend her experience, but explained she is 'trying to trust in god's timing'.
"I have always believed that the universe has my back and no matter how confusing this all feels, I am trying to make sense of this grief with my faith. I feel so guilty for my thoughts prior and I would do anything to have that pain, over this harrowing experience," she wrote.
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Guidolin went on to thank her doctor for 'being [her] biggest support during such a life changing time', as well as the team at her hospital.
"Thank you to my friends, family, their parents my mum for literally dropping everything to fly to be with me in the hardest time of my life. Maybe some souls were always meant to be angels," she wrote, adding: "Pixie, I love you."
Guidolin has received a wealth of support from her followers, with one writing: "I’ve been exactly where you are and I know there is nothing I can say to help heal your pain. Just know your baby is there watching over you."
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Another commented: "I am also an angel mama to a beautiful baby girl. I want you to know my heart is with you right now as are all the other angel mamas out there."
While Guidolin said her life 'will never be the same', she expressed her thanks again in another post to those who have 'rallied around her'.
"I will forever be thankful," the mum wrote.
As well as assuring Guidolin she is not alone in her experience, Instagram users have offered their prayers and thoughts for the grieving mother.
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If you have experienced a bereavement and would like to speak with someone in confidence, contact Cruse Bereavement Care via their national helpline on 0808 808 1677
Emily Brown