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SAS: Who Dares Wins is officially back on telly and this time contestants are being pushed to the limit in the Vietnamese jungle.
Among the 20 men and women who have signed up to the brutal Channel 4 series this season is Essex mum Becky, who is still processing the loss of her two-year-old daughter.
In tonight's episode, Becky, 35, opens up about the tragic death of her baby girl Darcy, and her story even has Chief DS Billy Billingham fighting back tears.
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As soon as she touched down in the jungle, the Directing Staff (DS) pointed Becky out right away.
She got through every course with a good attitude and a smile on her face, but her harsh temper made her a bit of a wild card.
The other recruits are in agreement that Becky is probably one of the toughest women they've ever met.
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"I'm definitely one of those people that protects my friends," she tells cameras.
"Once I got in trouble with the police for hitting a girl when I was 18. She was p***ing off my friend. That wasn't my finest moment."
In episode three, Becky's starts to slip up and the DS decide to pull her for a chat to see what's going on.
After failing a mission and forcing a savage game of murder ball to wrap up early because she got too aggressive, Becky gets called for a meeting with Billy and Foxy.
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When the DS demand to know why Becky signed up SAS, she holds back tears as she explains: "Everyone always tells me I'm really strong, like I'm a proper strong person. I don't really ever feel that strong."
She continued: "I just think I've probably been through the worst thing that could ever happen to me, and I'm still here somehow."
That's when Becky gets into it.
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She tells the team: "My daughter passed away when she was 2 and a half, of cancer. It doesn't get easier."
Becky's daughter Darcy died from a brain tumour just three weeks after it was diagnosed.
"I've got a little boy, so - and he's amazing, he's my rock - you just have to get up the next day and do things because he's there. Life just goes on, doesn't it?"
Foxy agrees that nothing the team throw Becky's way will ever be harder than what she has already gone through.
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When Becky leaves to rejoin the other recruits, Billy has to take a moment to gather himself admitting that her story really 'threw him'.
Later, Becky tells camera that she never really felt like she was 'good at anything' before she became a mum.
"I was a really good mum for a while," she says.
"I was really angry for a while after [Darcy] died. I think now I'm not as angry. I appreciate everything a little bit more."
SAS Who Dares Wins: Jungle Hell continues next Monday at 9pm on Channel 4.
Topics: Channel 4, TV And Film, Parenting
Ali Condon